Yesterday, i'm sick...
So bad tlaga.... huhuhu...
Maghapon ako nakahiga lang....
Sama talaga pakirmdam ko...
Pero thank God kasi nakapagpahinga naman ako.. hihihi
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
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March 23, 2009, past five o'clock in the afternoon...
While I'm watching television, nagtext ang bestfriend ko...
And he told me, "Best, sunog na ung room natin!"
I was shocked, and asked him if he's joking!
Sobrang nalungkot ako....
Parang nadurog ung puso ko, kahit na ganun ung school namen...
Kahit na minsan, nilalait...
Pero, at that very moment, hindi ko alam bakit ganun ung naramdaman ko.
Though wala ako dun sa pinangyayarihan ng sunog.
Hindi ko namalayang unti-unti na palang tumutulo ang mga luha sa aking mga mata.
Lahat ng magagandang alalaala ko ngayong 3rd year kame, ay parang biglang naglaho...
Dito kame unang naka-experience ng air-conditioned room.....
Dito kame, nung una naming pinag-planuhan ang unang t-shirt ng klase namen...
Dito rin, kame nag-plano ng unang outing namin...
At higit sa lahat, dito din yung unang pagkakataon na lalong tumibay ang aming pagsasamahan...
Yung mga pagkakataon na kami na lang ang nag-klaklase sa sobrang sipag ni Sir Roca...
Yung mga trippings namen pag wala pang professor...
Halos lahat kami nasa corridor... Pero simula nang magkaroon ng aircon ang room namen lahat kame nasa loob... Yung mga ka-cornyhan na games... Yung "one-seat apart" tuwing exam tila ung isang silyang pagitan ay hindi kakasya ang isang normal na tao... Parang wala rin.. hahaha...
Dito rin sa room na ito nabuo ang bestfriendship namin ni Mumoy... At marami pang iba...
Masakit man isipin nawala ang mga munting alaala nasimulan... Ngunit, umaasa pa rin ako na may panibagong yugto ang parating para sa aming lahat. Ika nga, lahat ng bagay ay may dahilan. At ito ang siyang aking pinanghahawakan sa ngayon. Hindi pa rin huli ang lahat... Naging abo man ang mga ito. Ngunit sa aking puso, ang mga alaalang ito ay hinding-hindi maglalaho!
Patapos na ang araw....
Masaya naman ako kasi halos maghapon ko inaayos itong blog ko! hmp!
Pero nag-aral din ako, kahit bakasyon na, kailangan eh...
Kaso, mga isang oras lang yun! (hahaha)
Anong say nyu?
Di ko po pa kasi naayos yung schedule ko for this summer...
Sa dami ba naman kasi!
Alam ko ang dami ko dapat matutunan ngayon, kaso nakakalito...
Ano ba uunahin ko?
Pero sana naman bukas, magaw ko na ung mga tasks ko, hay buhay!
Pero ayos lang, enjoy naman itong araw na ito!
o sige!
Hanggang dito na lang!
Mataas na bill namin sa kuryente!
(hahaha)
Buenas tardes! -)
ay naku,ang dami ko gusto isulat....dame ko gusto ipahayag...at sa bawat letrang ito...sana'y inyong maramdaman na........ADIK lang ako....hehehehefirst time ba?hindi naman... iba kasi ung blog na ito..."ON MY OWN"
a new start for me....this is a new one....hehehehe trip lang...bakit ba?haha =)
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
" Even when life is tough, you can trust God to help you survive and thrive."
God is our protection and our strength. He always helps in times of trouble. There were times that i felt my life was too unfair and miserable. But, i am so fortunate because God is with me. His grace abounds in me. Life is not a bed of roses. Which means, STRUGGLES, CHALLENGES and PROBLEMS are always there. Maybe, later, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next week, next month or next year i would be able to face them and hoping to surpass all those! That's why my motto is
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!"
So, why should I worry? If I know that God is in control of everything! "Everything happens for a reason."
Every time I encounter problems, I'm trying my very best to look it as God's own way of preparing me to His perfect plan. There were instances, that i don't understand why He let it to happen in my life. Afterward, i realized then, that is for my own sake. Which made my life better.
MY PRAYER:
"God, thank You that You have a good plan in my life. Help me remember that You are working in my life right now."
Summer na!!!
i'm still thinking how would i spend it!
though i know, i have a lot of things to do...
study! review! study! review!
never ending study!
yet, i'm still wishing to relax and have some fun...
i want something new! something different!
well, let's see if my summer vacation would be a unique one!!
adios!
Why do i still feel this?
Am i reaLLy free?
Or i am still captivated of all your memories?
I always ask God ,
Do these feelings pleases Him?
Am i too wicked, if i feel this way?
Do i have the right to feel all these?
All i know is that "i hate you!"
And i regret that i have loved you!
That i wasted all my time, my love and my sacrifices!
Every morning as i wake up, i always ask myself...
What's wrOng with me?
What happenEd to jhAi?
The REAL ONE?
WhErE arE yOu now?
StartiNg aLL ovEr again
Finding myself to nowhEre,
TryiNg to bRiNg baCk thE reAl me...
SiNce i have loved you..
My wOrld became too miserable
I've been contolled by you
i even forget the real me!
"The one who is too carEful in dEcision making"
"A woman who staNd on wHat is riGht"
"A daughter who always triEs heR best to oBey her paRents"
" A fRiEnd whO sTays beside thEm"
"A gOod listenEr"
" A passionate musician"
"A writEr who unleash herself in writing"
"A student who only focus on her studies"
ALL OF THESE WERE GONE...
FROM THE DAY I STARTED LOVING YOU!
JHAI WAS GONE...
And hEre now,
A WOMAN WEARING HER PAINTED MASK,
WHO TRIED TO PLEASE THE MAN,
WHOM SHE THOUGHT THE RIGHT ONE!
And with the winK of aN eye...
Everything was gOne!
WORTHLESS SACRIFICES!!!!
